What is precious in life?

If given a year to live, what would be my to do list? If a period of 6 months max, what things would be removed from the list…further notice informs that a month is all I have? And a week, a day, an hour! I observed a pattern in my thoughts that slowly drifted from the materialistic to the abstract.

1. Stage of exploration and curiosity:

When I had a year to survive, I planned on going on a world trip covering as many places and cuisines as possible, (Leh Ladakh being my priority again !) along with reading, watching and listening to all the famous recommended compositions by well-known artists and grab as much knowledge possible. Spending time with family, friends and being of service to others was also somewhere at the midpoint of the priority list

2. Payback time to the society:

6 months made me a little more conscious and I wanted to serve, teach, inspire and be useful to the society in a way to give back since I have been more on the receiving side (the rational programmed mind thinking) So, I think I was being a lot more less selfish in societal terms!

3. Belongingness:

A month made me made me want to drop out from college as I still have 4 months to complete my M.SC but hey dropping out is a different kind of experience altogether! Back to the seriousness, I felt like being more with my family and near ones and myself. Basically with those who have occupied a big part of my life, with whom I have grown and those who inspire and motivate me. In short, those people with whom I feel belongingness and have taken them in my consciousness by accepting them just for who they are.

4. Diving deep within:

A week’s time… To get my braces detached since I don’t wish to die with them on! Ha-ha. Well, the only thing I felt like doing was meditate and resonate with the universe... Journey into the self and my last attempts to find the answer to the most important question in life…”What is the purpose of my life? Why did I emerge in this human body, why do I have to leave it, where will I go or what will happen of me in the afterlife if there is one after all?”

5. Compassion and forgiveness:

Now comes the most most important task I would like to wipe out from the list if I am going to diminish within an hour. By creating a list of all those against whom I’m holding a grudge or who I think are holding against me. Why do I want to do this now, when I know that I am not going to be able to speak with them ever again due to my time constraint (1 hour)?! The reason that I fell is maybe because I want to feel and express the love that I am made up of which is bubbling out simultaneously as my ego is dissolving. Love- the most innate, natural and the expression of our very existence.

Looks, clothes and everything to do with outer appearance including my being a health freak, the attention seekingness, career and FUTURE were all seeming to fade like a dream as I was constantly engaged in them and it took efforts to know what was going on now, in the Present moment…Social networks looked amusingly total waste of time and energy and Loving every single being (even the ones I hate or maybe especially the ones I hate) was what all I wanted. So that’s what I’m going to practice starting from NOW…reduce my hate list and work on not adding to it…

P.S. the hate list calls are my top most priority because who knows…what the next one hour might have in store for me ;)